This is a subject that I think relates so powerfully to both personally and professionally.
I am me, I can only ever be me, lucky for me that’s how I’m made, I cannot be some body else because I’m just me. As you are you.
What I mean though is, I’ve tried to be somebody else before, maybe somebody in my profession, seeing what there doing and thinking ‘A Ha’, I’ll do that! I’ll be like them and then I’ll get that work, for example.
I remember, being on a huge stage stage of a 5,000 people cruise liner sailing across the American seas..it was my first gig on there, I had all my songs ready for my set list, I had a rehearsal with the orchestra and was quietly confident before I went on stage. Until it hit me back stage that I’m just a girl from Salford, no big deal, yeah I sing and I’ve got a personality but I bet they’ll hate how down to earth I am.
The curtains went back, I walked on the huge stage in my long ball gown style dress and humbly walked onto the stage thinking oh my god, I’m going to die, they’ll hate me!!!!!!
As it happens, I had a good show and got some good reports, I just had this feeling inside though that I hadn’t given my best because of what I was thinking about myself.
The next couple of shows were the same, then one day I said…You can like me or lump me, I am who I am, I’m always striving to be a better person and I’m not everyone’s cup of tea but ultimately, I am me!
I went on stage the next day with that in mind and had one of the best shows of my life. I let my humour out, let my my down to earth personality do what it wanted to do and shared my songs and some stories!
As years have gone by I now have learnt to acccept who I am and know that you will repel some people and that’s ok they are not your audience or your circle of relationships and the people who matter to you – will love you 🙂